The news dropped yesterday that no Missouri K-12 school would be going back for the remainder of our spring semester. Lots of fun things I’ve been looking forward to for a while aren’t happening, bigger events like Wacky Olympics(and who knows the fate of our prom or graduation ceremony), but littler things too, like senior ditch day or the posters with all of our names and where we’re going to college. We’ll be okay without them in the long run, but it sure does suck right now.
I just wish I had one non-immediate family member as a buddy through all of this. If I could just have one friend stay with us(or go over and stay with a friend and their family), this would be taking a lot less of a toll on me mentally. Everything seems to deteriorate more and more each day. Creative writing is currently my only class that I’m caught up in, and my lack of concern about this is the most concerning thing. I wish I had the drive or structure to keep up with all my schoolwork, but it is so hard to do. I learned that I can’t be on top of every last aspect of my life all at once, so it turns into a game of prioritizing what matters most. For example, say my goals in no particular order are keep a clean room, keep up my shower routine, workout every day, get a good amount of sleep, take time for my mental health, spend time with my family, work for the clubs that I’m an officer for, and stay on top of schoolwork. There’s just no way for me to do all of those things simultaneously. I was Facetiming my friend from Florida, and she said she’s either on top of absolutely everything or absolutely nothing. I don’t know which one of our two systems I’d prefer. I’m never usually at rock bottom with every single goal like she described to me, but I’m never accomplishing everything I want to either. I have to decide whether it’s more important for me to sleep for 7 hours or if I should get my 56 question physics assignment done. When I was going to school everyday, I had a better balance of sometimes prioritizing me and sometimes prioritizing school, but in quarantine with purely virtual education, anything else beats out school. Should I do 3 full-length past FRQ exams for statistics, or should I get a workout in since I haven’t left my bed all day? It’s never a hard decision.
Anne-tics 